Introduction and Challenge- Day One

Introduction

Sarah, if you're reading this, go away. 

Believe it or not, typically I have a pretty strong filter for my blogs. The main motivation for this is the knowledge that my sister will read them and no one needs to know certain things about their sibling. I often find myself leaving things out of posts or not writing about certain subjects because of her. Mostly that has to do with sex. Not that I'm having any, ever, but still it's something that sometimes I'd like to discuss.

It isn't going to be porn*. We're going to use mature terms for our parts. Even if it is stigmatized or awkward to talk about these things we're going to pretend it's not.

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Challenge

I have been having a bit of problem lately. It's not a huge one, but still a problem. I have been having a hard time achieving an orgasm a lot of the time. This is likely a side-effect of the Prozac I'm taking as it really started with the increased dose I started taking more than a month ago. I might be willing to bring this up with my Doctor, but she also happens to be the person who signs my paychecks and someone I see everyday.

I don't think it's a serious issue; at least not serious enough to warrant giving up on the medication, because of the positive effects it has had on me in other areas. Also, all the drugs in the SSRI category have the risk of the same side effect.

So, the issue becomes only becomes major once a masturbation session takes a ridiculous amount of time. I have had to give up a few times, which is kind of disconcerting. I masturbate to get off and having to give up that goal is disappointing.

This problem has gotten better over the past week. The only change is that an injury has forced me to switch the hand with which I masturbate. It is a strange feeling, but I wasn't having any other problems that the usual ones caused by using a strange hand.

Recently, I found this YouTube channel via Emma's Youtube page. It is all about sex and the like and found this video, which is the basis for this challenge:

http://youtu.be/RWyCbHtd-Tg

I not getting off during sex, because I'm not having any. However, the not masturbating for two weeks things seems like it might be a good idea, because my penis is pretty trained to only respond to my left hand and it I think it is pretty desensitized to it, which is probably exacerbating the problem.

So today is the first day and my goal is to get through Sunday, May 20th without getting myself off. I mean it isn't challenging yet, because I haven't been masturbating *everyday* for a few months. However, since I learned that I had the ability to do it I've haven't gone a week without getting myself off. So, I'm sure it will turn into a struggle pretty soon, but as of now I'm doing alright.

My primary concern is the affect that this may have on my mood. When I was having a really bad depressive episode earlier this year, I found that I wasn't masturbating almost at all. Being alone in your room with your penis in your hand is kind of sad, shameful thing; at least in the eyes of society, but I found orgasm to be a very effective mood elevator and that could totally offset any shame that I might have felt afterwards.

Thanks for reading

-Michael

*Erotic Literature is fun, but is best kept to the dark corners of the internet under aliases.